A little psychosis anyone?

By my research, all of the dexamethasone should be out of my system now. I'm still having a lot of pain, some in places I did not have it before, like my spine. I am having tremors in arms, hands, and legs frequently. I had never really had hand/arm tremors before. I also have frequent tingling in the fingers of both hands, but mostly the left - which is not the side I normally had the majority of symptoms before.

My memory and concentration seem to be about the same as they were before. Attention is much worse - I am working on crocheting holiday gifts and have to work on three or four at a time to get them done because I lose interest in the project pretty quickly. I have a lot of trouble planning as well - right now my focus is on the holiday gifts, so that's all there is to me. I know there are other things I should do, but even when I sit and try to think what they are, I may come up with one or two - but I don't know what priority they are, or if I even should actually worry about them. Confusion is worse, anything I try to figure out, I usually end up finding is wrong - this is becoming really worrisome where bill paying is concerned.

What is really scaring me, though, is the possibility of psychosis. Research shows this to be possible due to steroid therapy (in which case it should go away now), but also is possible in MS, and in Chiari Malformation (which my very first MRI in 2000 revealed). The problem is, I am afraid maybe this didn't just start. I was told I acted completely inappropriate, yelling, angry, stomping in a situation that I felt only confused about. This really scared me. What scared me more is that I don't think this is the first time this happened. I remember other times my soulmate told me I acted out of character or inappropriately. I have been hearing voices and seeing flashes for several years, usually when sleeping, or just settling down. Then add the long strings of nonsensical speech that plague me.

I don't want the medication - I never want to do steroids again. I have no choice then but to do my best to not talk in public situations, let my soulmate do the talking, and hope this is the steroids and will get better. At least my dogs understand me.